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Amanda's avatar

Thank you for sharing such an honest look at your life and your perspective. It's really refreshing, and it's helpful for those of us who are also really struggling to see that we're not alone (and even in a similar boat, or at least the same lake or ocean, as someone we admire).

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Carlos G. Salgado Schwarz's avatar

Captain, keep your head high. Face the future for you and your son, and never stop.

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Sharon Ragamalika's avatar

This is weird to say and not because I relish the thought of another’s misfortune but I’m excited for what you plan to do now. Hearing about someone’s success is great and having success is unmatched, but it tastes so much sweeter after you’ve had your ass handed to you by the universe. All good things are coming.

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LoriAnn Capitini's avatar

Wishing you all the best as you navigate this new life. I recently made some BIG changes and I'm fucking terrified of starting over again but it's necessary for my growth and well being.

For me, Fall (living in NY) has always felt like the best time for transformation and change. "Autumn teaches us that change can be beautiful. Embrace personal growth as gracefully as the leaves fall.”

Thank you for being vulnerable, raw and honest. Those qualities alone make you someone I truly admire.

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Gloria Barton's avatar

Dear Kyle, your honesty is a profound gift, to have the depth of courage to tell it like it is, is a rare and beautiful gift to so much of the world who still fears greatly dropping the mask of image, and meeting reality openly and honestly. With all my heart I wish you a deep abiding happiness that no storm can shake or shatter❤️❤️🎯🌈🌈🐝🦋💎🦅🐝🐝😀😀👍👍🌇🌇🎆

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Elisa's avatar

So sorry about your relationship coming to an end …. I’m glad you guys will have the support you need in CA. Sending my best ❤️

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Jessica Smith's avatar

Peace and love as you navigate this new chapter.

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Amanda LaRose's avatar

Sending love and positive vibes as you navigate this new transition. 💖

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John Loraine's avatar

I am sorry to hear about your situation man, but I hope things will turn around to the best or better very soon. They usually do turn around. It sucks to process and deal with all that at the time, but what doesn't kill ya, will make you stronger. Family should always be your top priority, and whatever it takes to stay close to them and be around them is always the right decision, even if you have to move back to CA. Keep doing the right thing, and keep writing, I hope the right job or new opportunity will present itself eventually. Good things are fucking coming! Good luck there.

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Tami Barbagallo's avatar

Life can definitely kick a person in the teeth - I left aged 30 with a 2 month child (it was an abusive relationship) with a junk car and 16 bucks…within two weeks I had rented a small house and had a job that would support us..(my mom let us stay with her those two weeks).. fast forward 33 years and I have dual citizenship with Australia, own a condo there and rent an apt in the USA every summer.. I spend the other six in Australian summer..my daughter is grown and has a great husband and two children and a beautiful house four blocks from the ocean .. moral of the story is you have to get kicked down to jump up higher because you know what you DONT want .. you’ll be better than ever before ! Peace and love to you xxx

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Norma's avatar

Wow I know this sounds bad but I promise I mean well when I say that I love posts like these! I’m obviously not rejoicing in the fact that you’ve been going through hard times but the fact that I can relate to this and in some way feel like I’m not alone in this. Sometimes I get in a dark place where I feel like a failure because I have never been able to buy a house or held a good paying job but I should be grateful for the things I have that are priceless such as my kids and my health. It’s not easy out here Kyle and I admire people like you that are not afraid to take risks and this gives me hope. I’m always scared to take steps or make drastic changes in my life. I love the fact that you’re willing to move miles to be close to your son. It also saddens me because my kids’ father live in the same city as my kids and he never even come see them. Wish nothing but the best to you. You’re a cool guy that I have always followed because you’re REAL! And we need more of this and less social media fallacies of a perfect world.

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Sarah's avatar

Sometimes it feels like you're in my head writing these things!! About a month ago my life was shattered & I still can't fathom how I'll move on/get through it. Everyone keeps saying I will, but it's hard to believe them in the moment. I so appreciate your writing, especially when it makes me feel like I'm not alone.

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Marie Rao's avatar

It’s hard for me to imagine a man with such wisdom and grace, going through a time of not believing in yourself. I’ve followed you since early twitter days, and you’ve given me hope and help. Happy to see your turn around and your knowing how to move forward. Nothing is more important than your relationship with your son. That is , next to your relationship with yourself. Godspeed Captain! Rock on with your bad self!!!!

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Chris Andrews's avatar

I respect and appreciate that fact that you can be so open and accepting of your situations both good and bad and by sharing things like this you have given me some faith about some decisions I need to make in my own life so I thank you for that. I love your words and your perspectives and they have definitely helped me to to look at things differently. I hope everything goes to plan for you from here on out. Don’t lose sight or hope because your struggle and words helps others to do better. Especially me so Thank you sir. Sending you love and light ✌🏼❤️

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Courtney's avatar

Sorry for all

You've been going through life sure can be a prickly bitch but how god dammed refreshing is it to read something like this when most of the things peddled online are ego fueled delusions of grandeur. Thank you, truly, for being real and vulnerable. It's the only way and I applaud you

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Deana's avatar

Someone once said sharks don't worry about Monday. They're up early, biting stuff, chasing stuff, being scary reminding everyone they're a fucking shark. I bought a mug with that saying printed on it.

It was the reminder that I needed to step into my power. It reminded me that I already have everything I need, I only have to be the version of me that remembers who I am and the power that I have.

I appreciate you putting that on a mug and offering it to those that wanted the reminder. It serves as an anchor to me.

Thank you for sharing so transparently. Welcome to the club of overcomers. You got this!

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